I have been going back and forth to court trying to fight a battle that began the day I became strong to leave my abusive husband, unfortunately I thought that the system will help me, and instead trough out time they forgot that I was a victim I am still suffering the pain even though I am not with him and I am feeling trapped with no where to go, I can't even visit family because he is out there, I can't even leave the house without looking over my shoulder, and hopping no one that knows him sees me.
He knows the town I live in and trying to find a safer place has become an issue in court, I was abuse by the father of my kids, my husband, he abused me physically as well as mentally and I am still trying to recover from the internal scars that he has left behind. I am not safe even though I wish I was, I try to be strong for the kids because they hurt just as much as me, this has affected them and they want for it to end, it just does not seem to want to go away.
The courts don't seem to care about the children emotional being more less my own, we have been through pain, fear, loneliness, emptiness, darkness, the dispear, the crying and the sadness, we really are trying to recover but staying here is not going to help us, I want my kids to know what is like to go out without looking over their shoulders everytime they are out, I want them to know that there is a way out, is there someone out there that might be able to give me some advise on what I need to do.